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listless

Alright...
So I signed up for a Beth Moore book study... and I don't know.

So far it's been alright. I've only done day one, though.

Let me start further back, though...

This morning I got up and went to BCC. In the atrium there were a bunch of tables set up for the woman's brunch with yellow table cloths and elaborate centerpieces and up front there were two cushy chairs on a platform. "What are those for?" "I dunno, that's big church for you." As it turns out those were for a drama presentation. Yes, folks, a DRAMA PRESENTATION. During brunch two performers got up onto the stage.
One of them was a middle aged lady and the other was this guy in a white choir robe holding a Bible. At the beginning, they were both seated in the chairs and she was about to start her quiet time, but she received a phone call. The woman on the other end was one of her friends telling her about a great sale that she was going to miss, unless she left right away.
"But I'm kind of busy right now" "but you need to get down here" "Alright, I'm going"
So then as she's getting up to go, the man in the robe (at this point, she starts calling him Lord, to signify God, I think) starts to follow her and she's like, "no, you stay here" and he keeps trying to follow her as she's getting ready. And eventually she gets annoyed with him and grabs his wrist, and says forcefully as she nails it to an invisible cross "YOU STAY HERE" and with each word, there's a sound effect like hammering as she nails both wrists to the invisible cross.

And then after that, another woman gets up and starts talking about how we become too busy for Jesus and that we leave Him up on the cross while we go about our days, never living in relationship with Him.

So, I'm not sure what to think at this point. Do I feel somehow guilty for not spending enough time with God? Or do I feel sorry for a God who doesn't say anything?

That's what really bothered be the most. The way they portrayed God as helpless and silent. Instead of a God who speaks to us. I guess that was their point: that we don't stop and listen. And that God will speak to us when we slow down and seek Him. It just seemed like an extreme example. As if missing my quiet time for one day is like crucifying my savior again.

Rather than portraying a loving, jealous God, who wants my whole heart, they portrayed Him as a weak God who can only speak to you under the right conditions. As if it's up to me when and how God will speak.

Anyway, this is already a long post, so I'll just say that Beth Moore is alright, she's just a little intense and I'll get over it. Aside from that she's a biblically sound woman who loves the Lord and I feel like I owe her an apology for any mean things I may have said about her or her studies in the past.